I've never enabled it, but this time before I started up my game I removed the awesomemod and the .dll file (I had never removed the .dll file before) and at least I got the loading screen. It froze though. Is that some improvement? I'm definitely not a computer person. 

Thanks   

okay, so call me crazy, but i want to play without the awesomemod. i do not want to reinstall it. unfortunately if i delete the awesomemod my game won't start. it crashes before the loading screen even shows up. i've even tried reinstalling my game numerous times and deleting the caches, but nothing works. it's either i play with the awesomemod and cc (which i must have) or nothing at all, only base game junk, which i hate. i've searched through the forums and still haven't found my answer. i'm getting so frustrated. it's been like this for a month now 

i'm am really sorry if this has been discussed and i missed it. but please help me.  please